O.K……..Where do I start? Well this has been quite a day to say the least. I woke up thinking “today is going to be better than the last 3 or 4 days” boy was I wrong. Within the hour I was about to pass out. I thought it was because I needed breakfast so I cooked and ate and that didn’t help. So I called the doctor and set up an appt for blood work. Within two hours I had my blood checked which revealed low WBC, RBC, magnesium, and slight dehydration. My doctor knew something was wrong when he walked in the exam room and saw me lying down on the exam table instead of seated in a chair as usual. Within fifteen minutes, I was in a different room in a bed, with an IV started, delivering all of the fluids I needed. I also got a Neupogen and Procrit shot to help with the low blood cell counts. An hour and a half later I started to feel 100% better. I was in a semi private room and the other patient was about to undergo chemo treatment. But for some reason they could not get her nausea under control. I listened to her suffer, moaning and groaning, the entire time. Initially, it was bringing me down because I was so drained I didn’t feel like I had anything to offer her. Then the Holy Spirit gently reminded me that no matter where I am and no matter what I am going through, that I am not my own… I am His. As a result, I needed to get my mind off of myself and my own problems and be about praying for this lady next to me. So even though I felt like a wet dish rag, I started praying for God to give her some relief. As I began to feel better, I started talking to her daughter about her mother’s situation. Come to find out, we have the same oncologist. She had colon cancer and had surgery and now has liver mets. So I began to share my story and encouraged her that this is just one day of many days to come. We call it the rollercoaster effect….. you have good days, bad days, and of course those in between days. I asked her her name and told her I would continue to pray for her. Then I heard my IV beep and looked up to realize that I had talked my bag empty.
As of 10:00 pm Wednesday night I am still a little pale and a little weak but much better than this morning. I’ve got more to say so tune in tomorrow…. Thanks be to God and my doctor’s and nurses and my father-in-law who helped pull my wagon out of the ditch today.