I know that life will not slow down until after the new year. The kids and I have been busy, but enjoying each other. Going to ballgames, studying for exams and trying to do some Christmas shopping. I knew this was going to be a hard time of year and it has had its moments. But God is allowing me to find the joy in the season. CHRISTmas is about the beginning of eternal life. The birth of our Lord and Savior and the beginning of all things new. God's new covenant was being made with man. The other day I was thinking of George's actual death, I felt the Lord prompting me not to focus on George's actual dying, but to focus on his eternal life which he is enjoying now. It has helped because the thought of death has finality and regret in it, but thinking on George living out his eternal life brings joy to my heart. I have learned that much of the healing process in grieving is about perspective, it is about a choice. God empowers us to make the choice to see things His way or we can choose to lock ourselves into torment, grief, and unexplainable emptiness. I want to choose the way of life, the way that brings our Lord glory, and when we make the choice the power to walk it out is available.
I love you all. Have a very blessed Christmas and enjoy your families and friends. Keep them close and let them know how you feel about them. Speak it, demonstrate it. Time is short and I know you want them to know how much you love them.