Today is better than yesterday. I'm thinking the Friday Gemzar hits me for 3 days and then I start back on the upstroke. I am journaling all the details to see if there is a pattern in the side effects. This thing is just as much spiritual/mental as it is physical. Or, as Yogi Berra would put it "90% of beating cancer is mental - the other half is physical" (haha).
Shot # 2 this a.m. - it hurt a little more than yesterday, maybe I knew what to expect or maybe I flinched. Hopefully this will get the white blood cell count up to normal.
It's getting hot out there and I can't take it. This rash is definitely of the anti-sun kind. (I am not supposed to be in the sun anyway with the chemo I am taking). I believe the meds are beginning to work on it - it doesn't appear to be progressing. I finally shaved. Robin will be happy. I was hesitant to shave due to the rash thinking it would do more harm than good. I'm still looking for that truck. Enough of the rash talk.
I think I saw every hour on the clock this early a.m. I have decided to use these awake times to pray and meditate. King David speaks to this is Psalm 4: 3, 4, 8 " (3) But know that the Lord hath set apart him that is godly for himself: the Lord will hear when I call unto him. (4) Stand is awe, and sin not: commune with your own heart upon your bed, and be still. Selah. (8) I will both lay me down in peace , and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me to dwell in safety." We all still need to get our sleep, but if you can't anyway, then why not pray?
Hope you all are doing well. George.